GUEST POST by Adrian Sutherland (Attawapiskat First Nation)
It
was four years ago. I had just gotten back from my month-long annual
spring hunt out on the land, during which time I had no contact with the
outside world. Upon returning, the first news I heard was that there
had been a stream of suicide attempts in my community of Attawapiskat,
an isolated Cree village on the coast of the James Bay in Ontario.
Everyone was talking about it, and media across the country were
covering what was being referred to as a “suicide crisis” in Canada’s
north.
I
was shocked. Like many others, I just couldn’t understand what had
happened. Why were these kids — they were kids, all of them — suddenly
trying to take their own lives? It was devastating and it really
bothered me. I didn’t know what to do, or how to help.
I
recall talking to others, trying to learn about the issue. It was
extremely difficult trying to pry information from frontline workers due
to the sensitive nature and confidentiality of patients and clients,
but one professional did confess there over 30 attempts in the span of
one month. Thirty attempts! That’s equal to one attempt per day! That
was a truly startling number.
No
one has the answers or knows how to deal directly with social issues,
especially when it comes to remote places across Turtle Island. Quite
often the issues are complex and deep-rooted, stemming from
intergenerational trauma that is not easy to heal. A lot of the social
challenges quite largely get ignored because people simply don’t know
where to start. This is especially true in Canada’s northern Indigenous
communities where adequate social and mental health resources are
seriously lacking. I also know these same social issues have impacted
too many of our relatives in Indigenous communities throughout the U.S.
Even
though I didn’t know what to do, I knew I had to do something. Being a
musician and songwriter, the only way I could think of to try and help
was to use my craft. So I wrote a song called “I Need Angels.” It tackles the topic of depression and suicide, while instilling hope with messaging about not giving up.
We
chose “I Need Angels” for Midnight Shine’s debut music video, and a
small video crew from Vancouver and Winnipeg travelled to Attawapiskat
to shoot it. Being able to make this video in my community meant a lot
to me, but I’m not going to lie — it has also taken a toll on my own
mental health. I have to contend with my own challenges, because like
most families in the north, we’re struggling, too. But I find it’s
important and helpful for me to debrief and talk about what I’m feeling,
and how all this affects me.
To
be honest, I was reluctant to move forward with recording “I Need
Angels,” because I felt it was a topic most people were not ready to
talk about – especially people who have lost loved ones to suicide. But
I’m glad I chose to move ahead with recording it, and including it on
our third album, High Road, which was released in 2018.
With
the release of the “I Need Angels” in November 2018, and a lot of media
interest in the story behind the video, I have had to talk about it
many more times than I wanted to. Talking about it and thinking about it
so intensely for several months was tough, and often draining. There
are times I wondered if I made the right choice to write this song and
make this video, taking on such a difficult and sensitive topic.
And
then at other times I will receive an email or social media message
from someone who has heard the song, or watched the video, and they
wanted to write and say thank you. They want to let me know the song
brings them hope, or has helped them or their loved ones in some way. At
these times, it feels like the right choice, and it makes me proud to
know that my music does make a difference.
(Adrian
Sutherland is a singer, songwriter, musician, recording artist and the
frontman and founder of roots-rockers Midnight Shine, making meaningful
music with important messages that resonate across Canada and beyond. “I
Need Angels” is approaching nearly 100,000 YouTube views.
Find out more about Adrian and Midnight Shine at https://midnightshineonline.com/.
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